It Had Better Be Tonight

so tiger eye tryouts were today..my third year..holy crap! when did this happen???? anyways i made it and will be participating in the Auburn University Marching Band Flag Line for the 2010 football season!! war damn eagle!

Today Was A Fairy Tale Kind Of Day

absolutely beautiful snow in auburn! it was a gorgeous winter wonderland for one and a half days (enough for me by the way) and it was mesmerizing. snow falling is probably one of the most beautiful things in the whole world. there is just nothing else like it. OMGOSH! it was a fairy tale kind of day.

Catch Up

outback bowl pep rally..sheikra rollar coaster in background :)
kendall and me on christmas

molly and me in dallas!

me and a friend at a party

me and my best friend in the world, molly!

happy halloween!!

kisses for aubie

well hey ya'll, it's been a while. things have changed a bit since the last time i wrote. people i considered best friends "forgot" me, causing quite an emotionally painful fall semester. a lot of anger and a lot of tears. then comes christmas break/new year and i finally accept that there are some things that will never get an answer to the question "why?" and that i didn't do anything wrong and it wasn't my fault. recently i was able to finally talk to these people and explain all of the hurt i felt and they apologized, sincerely. the reasoning to them was they were so busy and they weren't purposefully ignoring me and after i tried to talk to them around october they realized i was hurt and angry, and decided to let me "cool off". this was dumb of them, i mean, hello!, it's me..i would never have thought of that. ugh! so anyway, now i have to decide if i can let the hurt go and forget. because i've forgiven them, i just need to figure out if i want them in my lives. this may seem a little dramatic that i would consider letting go forever these two friends after this but i promise there is other stuff that i don't care to discuss on a blog. this whole thing was the icing on the cake of a very rocky end to summer.

well anyways with this i've made new friends who seem to want me around and are guinuenly happy when i come to hangout. but still it was especially hard early on in the semester. being around them made me so sad it hurt. but little by little the hurt eased. yeah i still miss "the group" but maybe i'm better off this way. change happens and it has to be accepted or else you'll go crazy. living in the past does absolutely nothing for you. besides focus on the past=missing out on the present=bad! so..

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Ok, in other news. AUMB was as fun as ever! we did a spicy latin show that included gorgeous flags, high kicks, splits, and all around sassy hip shakin! we also did a fun show that included a gospel tune, when the saints go marching in, and south ramparts. how many times does halloween fall on a home football saturday? not many..so we go to do such a fun theme show including thriller (of course), night on bald mountain, the shining/halloween movie themes, and phantom of the opera. cap off the season with a fantastic bowl trip to tampa for a week! :)

parties and boys and such were fun too. :) the fun stuff that comes a long with college. oh and i learned how to really study. ended the semester with a good GPA! :)

oh yeah..and i've finally decided on my major. im going to be a nurse...most likely a pediatric nurse to be more accurate. i really want to be able to maybe help a child and if i cannot do that, at least make their trip to the doctor- whether it's for a check up or for a serious illness- a little more fun..maybe bring a smile to a hurting face.

Wait...I'm Not a Freshman Anymore? Whaaaat??

2009-2010 AU Flag Line :)

2009-2010 Auburn University Tiger Eyes

And I Thank My Lucky Stars I'm Alive and Well

Crying is not exactly what most people-including myself-would call fun. But you know what, sometimes letting those tears cascade without attempting to stem the flow is so very good for your well being. Crying releases that poison that has been coarsing through you for how ever long. You know that poison I'm talking about-sadness, hate, anger, whatever-the kind that is so suffocating that it feels like the weight cannot be lifted. Crying lightens the load, if only for a short time. But that short bit of freedom is enough to make you realize that you'll be ok in the end. So let it out. Tears have a surprising healing power that should not be underestimated.

You Know What I Want?

I want a love that's unfailing, forever plus eternity, a love that doesn't fade. I saw that today while I was working. It was pouring down rain and this old couple, probably in their 70s or 80s get out of the car. The man holds the umbrella over his wife so that she doesn't get wet, even though he does. He also follows behind her with a gentle, guiding hand so that she, being a woman in her 80's, doesn't slip and fall. It was one of those moments that would look beautiful in an old black and white photograph. Now that's real love, a love that has grown and blossomed, not a love that has been torn and throw away. This love was like coming home, an everlasting, beautiful, absolute comfort that allows one to be so deeply connected with another that they are literally halves of each other. One cannot function without the other. True soulmates. I sincerely hope that everyone can find that. I hope I can find that.

I Think I'll Try Defying Gravity and You Can't Pull Me Down

:) <33333

bored on the two hour car ride to birmingham

getting ready to leave..all dressed up for the show

casino royale

so last weekend was fun..i went back to prom (boy did i feel OLD). the theme was james bond-casino royale. i kept it simple with a shimmery black dress and i had a good time. and sunday i saw wicked. that was absolutely phenomenal. definitely a must see. and two weeks from today i will be officially done with my freshman year! woah! it went fast..but that's for another blog.