Thursday, December 23, 2010

what a night! here's to everything that's good in life :)
f***all haters

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

What A Fall Semester!

WAR EAGLE! just about sums it up.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

It's Just a Blur of Old Memories

i was just looking back over my blogs(which i started two years ago almost) and i don't even know the girl who started it anymore. she's nothing but a shadow of a memory now.
that girl was innocent and care free.
where did she go?
a little of her needs to come back.
i need to learn how to open my heart again.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Free As We'll Ever Be..

love god, love people

Friday, May 21, 2010

Honey, I Pray For You

So Tyler is offcially gone, friends or otherwise. he's the one i have more than a couple blogs about. basically i've fought really hard to maintain his friendship and he was doing well until spring break. since then he's become even more disrespectful and cruel. about a week ago he was so nasty and mean for no reason at all that i was just shocked. he was cursing at me and threatening to never talk to me again and blah blah. so a couple days later i told him i wanted to stop fighting and come to a peace. he said it was impossible and that i was a backstabber who he couldn't be associated with. ok. whatever. it was bull crap. i'll never get straight answers and i'm tired of this crap. the manipulation, emotional and verbal attacks. for two years. i'm DONE! he's a screwed up person and has serious issues and i've finally realzied i don't have to take the disrespect and intentional cruelness. it's not my job to fix him or save him or whatever. and as much as i'm that person who doesn't want to give up on somebody, when my personal emotional state is messed with so much that i can barely get through, something's gotta give. and he made his choice. just wish i had done it first. because over the last couple years he's been the backstabber and the one who caused so much pain to me. so buh bye.
i'll just sum up my feelings towards him with a song:

"Sometimes we get angry but we must not condemn,
Let the good lord do his job, you just pray for them...

I pray your brakes go out runnin down a hill,
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like i'd like to.
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flyin high when your engine stalls.
I pray all your dreams never come true.
Just know wherever you are, honey, I pray for you."

<3 you forever, tyler. (psh. yeah right! :p)

Saturday, April 10, 2010

It Had Better Be Tonight

so tiger eye tryouts were third year..holy crap! when did this happen???? anyways i made it and will be participating in the Auburn University Marching Band Flag Line for the 2010 football season!! war damn eagle!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Today Was A Fairy Tale Kind Of Day

absolutely beautiful snow in auburn! it was a gorgeous winter wonderland for one and a half days (enough for me by the way) and it was mesmerizing. snow falling is probably one of the most beautiful things in the whole world. there is just nothing else like it. OMGOSH! it was a fairy tale kind of day.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Catch Up

outback bowl pep rally..sheikra rollar coaster in background :)
kendall and me on christmas

molly and me in dallas!

me and a friend at a party

me and my best friend in the world, molly!

happy halloween!!

kisses for aubie

well hey ya'll, it's been a while. things have changed a bit since the last time i wrote. people i considered best friends "forgot" me, causing quite an emotionally painful fall semester. a lot of anger and a lot of tears. then comes christmas break/new year and i finally accept that there are some things that will never get an answer to the question "why?" and that i didn't do anything wrong and it wasn't my fault. recently i was able to finally talk to these people and explain all of the hurt i felt and they apologized, sincerely. the reasoning to them was they were so busy and they weren't purposefully ignoring me and after i tried to talk to them around october they realized i was hurt and angry, and decided to let me "cool off". this was dumb of them, i mean, hello!, it's me..i would never have thought of that. ugh! so anyway, now i have to decide if i can let the hurt go and forget. because i've forgiven them, i just need to figure out if i want them in my lives. this may seem a little dramatic that i would consider letting go forever these two friends after this but i promise there is other stuff that i don't care to discuss on a blog. this whole thing was the icing on the cake of a very rocky end to summer.

well anyways with this i've made new friends who seem to want me around and are guinuenly happy when i come to hangout. but still it was especially hard early on in the semester. being around them made me so sad it hurt. but little by little the hurt eased. yeah i still miss "the group" but maybe i'm better off this way. change happens and it has to be accepted or else you'll go crazy. living in the past does absolutely nothing for you. besides focus on the past=missing out on the present=bad! so..

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Ok, in other news. AUMB was as fun as ever! we did a spicy latin show that included gorgeous flags, high kicks, splits, and all around sassy hip shakin! we also did a fun show that included a gospel tune, when the saints go marching in, and south ramparts. how many times does halloween fall on a home football saturday? not we go to do such a fun theme show including thriller (of course), night on bald mountain, the shining/halloween movie themes, and phantom of the opera. cap off the season with a fantastic bowl trip to tampa for a week! :)

parties and boys and such were fun too. :) the fun stuff that comes a long with college. oh and i learned how to really study. ended the semester with a good GPA! :)

oh yeah..and i've finally decided on my major. im going to be a nurse...most likely a pediatric nurse to be more accurate. i really want to be able to maybe help a child and if i cannot do that, at least make their trip to the doctor- whether it's for a check up or for a serious illness- a little more fun..maybe bring a smile to a hurting face.