oh my my has it been a long long time. i guess that's what happens when your life is consumed with college school work, band, football, and somehow hanging out with friends, getting stuff cleaned, grocery shopping, and whatever else may come along.
college is hard as hell. i know it is supposed to be but i studied for one test more than i studied for four years in high school and i still did not do well. honors writing is not working. i dont know what he wants and therefore i cant seem to write a decent paper. i really hope i can keep my scholarship. i have never in my life been more stressed about school. never. i got an A on my biology exam though...something positive.
band takes just about every free second i have. i love it so much but really i am so glad we have a couple weeks off with no football games. plus au needs to step up..not playing so hot this year..:p
speaking of friends, i am so glad that i have them. they have kept my head above water this semester. except that one of my best friends jasmine basically hates me right now. sorry for not supporting her even considering getting engaged after knowing/dating a boy for four months. and i was never mean about it. not to mention that i worry all the time about molly. she's so sad because of her dad's death but she doesnt want to deal. however we have gotten even closer this year becasue of all of the craziness.
of course it has been amazing too! going out whenever i want. dancing and doing whatever at bourbon street bar is great fun-lets just say those were some crazzzyyy nights. plus parties and movie nights. or just chillin at insomnia with the guys is always a blast. plus the nashville trip and this weekend i'm going to the beach and the next to ole miss for the game as a student! i can actually wear a cute orange dress!
really this semester has flown by..i love college..but sometimes it makes me sad to think how easy and carefree a lot of stuff used to be. it hurts to see how much so much has changed. now look i know things change..duh..life would be blah if it didnt but sometimes it is just overwhelming. it's hard to even describe what i'm talking about..it just hurts sometimes.
also i realized. i love going to church. i didnt go for about a month because i needed sleep but i need to go. it gives me such a sense of peace..the silence and familiarity is so..comforting.
this blog has been quite random..dont think i'm depressed or anything. i'm just adjusting to a new life. and my life..yea..i wouldn't trade it for anything. as long as i've got a friend there to care and laugh with and as long as i do the best i can, well what else can i ask for? *no one said life would be easy, but in the end it is so worth it. you know i heard a quote and there is no truer word spoken than the last line.."As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back".
long quote but still..