Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I Recall The Times We've Had, Hangin On My Wall

Everything is my fault. Or so I was told. Good bye my old friend. Obviously I wasn't good enough for you to keep as a friend and I was informed of such tonight. You wanted to date me again. We were doing so well, our friendship was on stable ground. I haven't heard from you since you asked me to date..again(and I have no way to get in touch with you since your phone is dead. and you never get on facebook) after this summer's disasterous attempt in which you double crossed me. I finally "chat" with you tonight on facebook. It's all my fault you say that you have let me go. Well if you are ready to give up this friendship and blame it all on "stuff going on" that you refuse to talk to me about, you let this be your reason. "You don't know me! You don't know my life!" Well I've tried. I can't read minds. You can't expect me to understand what is happening to you if you never let me, or anyone else for that matter, in..even the slightest bit. So once again I'm not good enough to be your friend. I don't do the right thing, right according to you anyway. "Kthxbye" was the end of it. Then I was deleted from your friends. I'll be surprised if I ever hear from you again. Wow. I just can't believe you would end a friendship after this long. I'm afraid that I'm gonna be saying "I have no idea where or who he is today" down the road in the future. And that hurts. No matter how badly you treated me friends or otherwise. The idea of never seeing or hearing from a friend again is terrifying. But obviously you're manipulative lying self made me believe that you cared when really I was just another person for you to use and then let fall off the ledge. So it's good-bye. And this time I think it's for real. So good-bye my old friend. I will not forget you ever. People, good and bad, have entered my life and left footprints on my heart. I guess you weren't meant to be a forever friend. Good-bye.

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